Back to painting again...

It is like coming home, having a brush in my hand, painting ....I love it, it makes me happy!!!

At the moment painting the icon "Mother of God Enthroned".

Mary opens my heart and reminds me of God's Love for us all, at all times in abundance.

I am responsible - I have a choice!

From Journey through A Course in Miracles..Ken Wapnick~ Rules for Decision

The cause of all distress is the choice point we made in our mind against Jesus/HS, which eventually led to the effect of our being distressed, upset, angry, depressed, sick, etc., etc. When we feel the effect, we must return to that choice point in our mind. Eventually the time between the cause and effect will grow shorter and shorter as you progress with the course.

As you progress with the course it does not mean that your life will be all sweetness and light, and that you'll never get upset, you'll never get angry, you'll never get sick, you'll never have attack thoughts, you'll never have specialness thoughts. What it DOES mean is that you'll become more and more aware of them the instant that they happen.

And so even if you choose to hold onto these thoughts, you will at least now know that you're choosing to hold onto them. That's the SOLE PURPOSE of the course. That's why this is called, again, A Course in Miracles. The miracle does NOT make the choice for you, it simply restores to your awareness that you have the choice.

The mind is the cause, the world is the effect. Whenever we have a problem in the world it is because we have forgotten the cause- which is in our mind. The miracle restores to the mind its function of being the causative agent of EVERYTHING we feel. That is ALL the course is training you to do. This is extremely important because if you don't understand this you'll do a massive guilt trip on yourself, because you'll think you're failing this course because you're still choosing your ego.

If this is a course in miracles, the function of the miracle is not to have you stop choosing your ego. It's to have you be AWARE that you're choosing your ego. This is what gets course students way off the mark, as they'll believe that they're choosing the HS when they're not doing that at all. Because they think that's the goal of the course.

The goal of the course is that you choose the miracle- which means you FINALLY understand what you are choosing, and then you learn to forgive yourself for continually choosing your specialness. And if you DO that, what you in effect have done is you've let Jesus look on your ego with you. That's what the miracle is- you go back to your mind, and with Jesus or the HS beside you, you look at your ego and you realize that YOU have chosen it. Even though at that moment you may not want to let the ego go, you will at least know what you're doing! And so you'll end up as a student of this course realizing how absolutely insane you are. Literally. Because you'll realize how you perversely, continually choose your ego and your specialness. But now at least you know you're doing it, which means you can't blame anybody else for it- you can't blame your environment, the person who just raped you, your genes, your bad karma- you can blame NOTHING. 

Now you will understand that if I'm upset right now it's because I WANT to be upset right now. I DON'T want the peace of God- I want a piece of the ego's action, I want my specialness- I don't want God's peace. But at least you know what you're doing! And that's the goal of the course- you've successfully completed the course. Because once you do that it's only a matter of time when you realize "this doesn't pay me anymore". That step will automatically happen. 

This is what the little willingness means- that you'll accept full responsibility for your specialness, full responsibility for your misery, for your pain- physical or emotional. You'll realize that no one is responsible for that except you. It's not sinful, it's not wicked, it's not evil- it's simply silly. If you can say it's silly, then you're beginning to understand what the HS told you right at the beginning: the tiny, mad idea is not evil, it's not wicked, it's not sinful it's silly. You look at your CHOOSING your specialness instead of the love of Jesus, and you SMILE at the silliness of it. Even as you're embracing it, even as you're defending it, even as you luxuriate in its pain, you will at least know what you're doing-and that's the goal of the course. That takes TREMENDOUS practice because you DON'T want to accept responsibility for it. You want to blame someone else. Even blaming your ego for it! In reality the ego is our own thought, and we are choosing the ego.

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AMEN

Look up and see His word...

Probably my favourite quote from A Course in Miracles...

My name is written in Heaven - and so is yours!  There is nothing to fear. Our destiny is certain.

Going HOME....

So, today I am going home.
This is for certain.
I have the ticket.
My bags are checked in.
I have passed through security control and passport control without any problems!
The plane is boarding in a few moments.
I AM GOING HOME!

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I am going home to the place I never really left.

Once this journey is started - I never have to worry about the outcome.
The end is sure and guaranteed by God.
Left is only JOY!!!

Happy journey!!

En helt almindelig dag - næsten

Der var nogle få ting vi skulle gennemføre i morges - når det var overstået, måtte vi godt spise.
Så jeg fik lidt frugt - og ja det smagte godt.
En tur til civilisationen til White Sand beach, hvor vi tog en dukkert i havet, spiste en salat og så købte vi nogle få gaver.
Jeg foretrækker stilheden på vort Spa.
Resten af dagen? Bare læse i min Bog, en tur i poolen og bare nyde det at være til.
Enkelt og greit!!

7. og sidste dag af fasten

I dag var den sidste dag af min faste/udrensning - den 7. dag.  I morgen eftermiddag  skal jeg spise igen.
Det har jeg ikke noget imod, jeg glaeder mig virkelig til igen at maerke, smage og tygge..  

Det underlige er at jeg nu er kommet til et punkt hvor jeg foeler at jeg godt kunne fortsaette med fasten fremover - jeg foeler ingen sult, men har nogle tilbagevendende tanker om mad, og om hvor dejligt det er at spise.  Men det er som om de ikke har saerlig megen kraft mere - de tanker.

Restauranten her er en af verdens 50 bedste rawfood/vegetar restauranter - saa det bliver sikkert en nydelse at proeve deres mad og ikke kun kokosnoedvand og groentsagsafkog...


I morgen tager vi en tur til White Sand Beach for at handle lidt og bade i havet... ud i det "virkelige" liv.

Vi havde en fin kajaksejlads i dag ud i mangroven, det var en spaendende tur paa en times tid.  Godt vi har stedsans begge to, der ude kunne man godt tage fejl af vejen .....

 
Og saadan er en uge gaaet, stille flydende, som denne kajak...

 

Loj Krathong festival i dag - fuldmaane... 6. dag i fasten

Denne festival  afholdes for at aere den oprindelige Buddha , Siddhartha Gautama.  Man aerer Buddha med at soesaette smaa eller store flettede baade. Den afholdes om aftenen for fuldmaane i den 12. maaned i den traditionelle Thai Maane Kalender.  Det er vanligvis i november.

Udover lys, laegger man ogsaa blomster, incense sticks og betel noedder i den lille kurv... For at aere flodaanderne laegger man en mynt i.

Udover at aere Buddha med lys, symboliserer handlingen  at man giver slip paa sin vrede, sine beklagelser og ufrugtbare tanker. Alt det jeg ikke har brug for i mit liv, bliver sendt afsted med kurven, saa jeg kan starte paa en frisk!

Det kunne simpelthen ikke passe bedre!! I dag er min 6. fastedag og jeg foeler mig meget let og aaben paa en maade.  Let ogsaa i kg.  Siden jeg startede nedtrapningen til fasten har jeg tabt 7 kg. Det har jeg ikke noget i mod.  Jeg har hele tiden sagt at det ikke er nogen slankekur men en udrensning af krop og sind.  Meen, jeg kan se at jeg aligevel har investeringer i det at have en slank krop,  Det er helt i orden!  

I aften vil jeg med den lille kurv jeg snart skal hen at flette, sende alle mine angrebstanker, mine beklagelser og tanker om fortid og fremtid afsted pa den lille soe.

Med stor tak!