All I need do is to step back...

From the Urtext: (as it was orginally written down by  the scribe of A Course in Miracles)

(October 5, 1975)

Be comforted. You are not asked to do anything. There is a time when to step back is all that is asked of you. It is a time of rest and not of strain; a time of peace and not a time of conflict.That time is almost here. It seems fearful because it is not under your control. But think a minute; stop and think honestly about what your control has done; what it has brought to you.

You have been caught in a trap from which you never could escape. Conflict, guilt and fear have come with you and never left your side. Each one of you has done this differently, yet each has come to the same place; the same impasse. And now it seems to each of you that there is no escape. For it is true that you cannot escape alone. Your stories seem to differ, for they do take different forms.Yet their one content makes you brothers. Dwell not upon the differences or you are lost. It is in recognizing the common content; the common need, that you are saved!

The mess that is your lives is an illusion. What can the form of dreams resolve? There is no answer to a question not yet asked, for it would not be recognized. Ask only this: Will I fulfill the function given me? What else is there to ask? Why must I know the form in which the answer comes to me? God answers, “Yes” and it is done. No more than this is meaningful to you.

It is not He Who would withhold the future and leave you fearful. You could not accept His “yes”in forms you would not understand. Things still in time unfold as is appointed them, and many things remain undone as yet. Plans based upon intangibles cannot be fully shown to you. And what has not as yet occurred must BE intangible.This phase of learning has a single lesson for all the forms your problems seem to take. To God all things are possible, but you must ask His answer only of Himself.

Perhaps you think you do, but be you sure that if you did you would be quiet now and wholly undismayed by anything. Do not attempt to guess His Will for you. DO NOT ASSUME THAT YOU ARE RIGHT BECAUSE AN ANSWER SEEMS TO COME FROM HIM. BE SURE YOU ASK, AND THEN BE STILL AND LET HIM SPEAK. There is no problem He cannot resolve, for it is never He Who keeps apart some questions to be solved by someone else. You cannot share the world with Him and make half of it His while half belongs to you. Truth makes no compromise. To keep apart a little is to keep all separate. Your life, complete and whole, belongs to God or none of it is His. There is no thought in all the world that seems more terrible.

Yet it is only when this thought appears in perfect clarity that there is hope in peace and safety for the mind so long kept dark and twisted to avoid the light. This IS the light. Step back and do not dwell upon the forms that seem to keep you bound. You WILL fulfill your function. And will have whatever you will need. God does not fail. But lay no limits on what you would give to Him to be resolved. For He can not offer a thousand answers when but one is all there is. Accept this one of Him, and not one question will remain to ask.

DO NOT FORGET IF YOU ATTEMPT TO SOLVE A PROBLEM, YOU HAVE JUDGED IT FOR YOURSELF AND SO YOU HAVE BETRAYED YOUR PROPER ROLE. Grandeur, which comes from God, establishes that judgment is impossible for you. But grandiosity insists you judge, and bring to this all problems that you have. And what is the result? Look carefully upon your life and let it speak for you.

Is this frail breath and deep uncertainty your choice for you? Or would you rather rest in surety, certain you would not fail in your request to have all problems happily resolved? Do not mistake the fine disguises you can use to cover judgment. It appears as charity, as mercy and as love; as pity, understanding and as care. And yet you know it is not what it seems because the problem still remains unsolved, and comes to haunt your mind in evil dreams.

What have you kept from God that you would hide behind your judgment? What have you concealed beneath the cloak of kindness and concern? Use no one for your needs, for that is “sin,” and you will pay the penalty in guilt. Remember you need nothing, but you have an endless store of loving gifts to give. But teach this lesson only to yourself.

YOUR BROTHER WILL NOT LEARN IT FROM YOUR WORDS OR FROM THE JUDGMENTS YOU HAVE LAID ON HIM. YOU NEED NOT EVEN SPEAK A WORD TO HIM. YOU CANNOT ASK, “WHAT SHALL I SAY TO HIM?” AND HEAR GOD’S ANSWER. RATHER ASK INSTEAD, “HELP ME TO SEE THIS BROTHER THROUGH THE EYES OF TRUTH AND NOT OF JUDGMENT,” AND THE HELP OF GOD AND ALL HIS ANGELS WILL RESPOND.

For only here we rest. We cast away our little judgments and our petty words; our tiny problems and our false concerns.We have attempted to be master of our destiny and thought that peace lay there.Freedom and judgment IS impossible. But by your side is One Who knows the way.Step back for Him and let Him lead you to the rest and silence of the Word of God.

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Årets korteste dag

Udsnit af  Maria Eleousa efter forlæg af Malin Dimov

Det meste af dagen i går arbejdede jeg videre på min nye ikon.  Birgitte var på besøg og malede videre på sin "Maria i forbøn" - den bliver så smuk...
Og jeg skulle tage stilling til Marias farver og er i grunnen overrasket over at det endte med at blive så meget gult - Erik mente jeg var i gang med i ikon som skulle til Sverige... Det er selvfølgelig en mulighed. :)
I dag vil jeg arbejde videre på ikonen - tøjet skal være nesten færdigt inden jeg kan gå i gang med ansigterne - (det er en regel jeg har lavet) det bedste til sidst.


I dag kan jeg glædes over at dette er årets korteste dag. Så vil lyset langsomt vendte tilbage. Det virker så lyst og fint  her til morgen, med et fint lag sne i græsset.  Det får mig til at tænke på Norge... Sandsynligvis kører vi til Signebøenfjellet mellem jul og nyttår. Så mange glæder!!
Det får mig til at tænke på det David Hawkins et sted skriver i "The Eye of the I": 

"Humanity  is in the process of being reborn, 

and the God of Joy is replacing the God of dread and fear".

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Am I afraid of being close?

It is easier to give than to receive.  At least, that is what I think - what I think it is like for me. If I am unable to receive - I will lack closeness.  Lacking closeness gives me sorrow.
 I cannot be 100% sure I am right. I might be wrong. According to  A Course in Miracles - giving and receiving is the same. So probably my ego is on the stage here - telling me I am good at giving - but not receiving.  Might the truth be it is just the other way round? Or might the truth be - none of this is true?
I have been discussing the feeling of sorrow with a close friend of mine. 
He holds that sorrow gives some kind of safety.  I know that the feeling of sorrow has a great attraction - but does it give me safety? I have never thought of it this way. So I gave it a thought...


Of course it gives me safety - it gives my ego safety.  If I am in sorrow - I have chosen the ego - kept it alive and well and made a distance to my Right Mind, made a distance to God.
The feeling of sorrow is often related to being left alone, not being with one  you long for, someone departed or just missing someone or something, and not knowing excatly what it is. This is actually a very good picture of the real problem - my feeling of being abandoned by God. (Or actually the feeling of guilt for ME abandoning God).


This is what I do in my relationship with God.  I keep a distance, it gives me sorrow - and I feel safe in that.  A wellknown feeling.  And all of this - just because I am afraid of closeness.  I am afraid of being one with all that is. I am afraid of being one with everybody around me, afraid of being one with Jesus, that is my problem.  But actually this problem can be solved if I so choose...


The big question is - how do I solve that preceived problem??  I know one thing for sure - I am not able to do that on my own.  I have to ask for help. From whom?  Well, I have a lot of helpers.  Angels are always around and willing to help, Mary is there and Jesus of course.  And then there is the Holy Spirit.  I can take a pick.
A pick of who will help me forgiving myself for chosing my wrong mind, for chosing my ego, and sorrow.
I am free to change my mind NOW. That is what I will do.

Today I will not be afraid of being close  

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Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present

View  of a Lifetime

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room’s only window
The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end.

They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation..
Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window. The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.
Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats.. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.
Although the other man could not hear the band – he could see it in his mind’s eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days, weeks and months passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.
She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.

It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.
The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.She said, ‘Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.’

Epilogue:

There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can’t buy.

‘Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present .’

The origin of this letter is unknown, but its positve energy expands when you share this.

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Ny Maria

Endelig er jeg kommet i gang med min nye Maria.  Denne gang vil jeg igen male på en lidt anderledes måde.  Jeg har malet bundfarven  i kun 1 lag og ladt den stå helt ujevn.  Lysningerne bliver lagt i meget tynde transparente lag sådan at proplasmos (bunden)kan anes.  Denne gang skal det lykkes...

The Eye of the I - David R. Hawkins

"The eye of the I  is a brilliant work that dissolves the barriers between the known and the unknown, between science and spirituality, and between the Newtonian linear paradigm of the ego "
The book :"The  eye of the I"  is written by  David R. Hawkins, M.D. Ph.D.

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What if there is a method to test Truth? A method you and I can use - and which requires nothing else than a muscle?
What if every feeling, human being, animal, tree - in short everything in the world had a frequency - and we are able to check that frequency?
David Hawkins asserts that in his book.
 He claims to have  calibrated every feeling on a level from 0 to 1000.  0 being shame and 1000 being enlightenment.
"All that ever is or was, without exception, radiates forth a frequency and a vibration as a permanent imprint in the impersonal field of consciousness and can be retreived by this test through conscioussness itself."
Anything that calibrates below level 200 is negative. and when you cross level 600 this indicates the crossing over from the perceptual world of duality to the nonperceptual world of nonduality.
 He has calibrated the muscle test and response itself, it calibrates at 600.
  This means that its true nature cannot really be comprehended by most people, although everyone can learn to use it in a practical manner .
The author holds that 78% of the world's population calibrates below the level of Integrity at 200.  The consiouseness level for mankind as a whole is now 207 - it took a jump in 1986 from 190  and crossed the critical line of 200 and on to its current level of 207.
Only 4 % of the worlds population ever reaches the level of Love of 500, and only 0.4 percent reaches the level of 540 or Unconditional love.   One in 10 million reaches the level of 600 (from duality to nonduality), where identification with the physical body ceases and thus, the great fear above all fears, death itself, disappears as a possible "reality".  

Interesting reading ..Gospel of Thomes he calibrates at 660, A Course in Miracles (workbook) at 600, Bhagavad Ghita 910, Upanishads 970, Zen 850.  As a keen reader of ACIM this is a bit surprising!He says " commitment to Enlightenment now becomes like a magnet pulling one towards it, and the rate of evolution is up to the individual's willingness to surrender resistances.  Enlightenment is not a condition to be obtained, it is merely a certainty to be surrendered to, for the Self is already one's Reality.  It is the Self that is attracting one to spiritual information".

I like that.I will write more - as I read on....
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Tvillinger...og andre børnebørn

Dagen startet med at tage Veterantog fra Hillerød til Tisvildeleje - sammen med Pernille, Kajsa, Mynthe og tvillingerne Mikkeline og Frederikke.
Flot tur gennem Gribskov med det gamle tog...Frederikke (her nedenunder) var ikke særligt glad for julemanden som kom med pebernødder.
I Tisvildeleje på Birkepladsen fik vi købt to flotte juletræer, Kajsa og Mynthe fik en ridetur og Frederikke og Mikkeline fik kikket på kaniner, får og Luciaoptog.
Heldigvis tog det kun 5 minutter at komme hjem.  Frederikke og Mikkeline fik sig en velfortjent lur.
I eftermiddags har vi bare hygget os med at læse lidt og pigerne har leget meget med dukker.  Jeg fandt mine mavedansebælter frem og så har vi ellers løbet rundt i huset og "ringet" med de fine bælter...  God  træning!

Jeg var så optaget af at være sammen med børnebørnene, at jeg helt glemte jeg havde udstilling i Tisvildelejecafeen og at mine ikoner skulle være afhentet ved 16. tiden.  Det kom jeg først i tanke om når klokken var 17.00.  Så var det hele lukket og slukket.  Heldigvis havde en god veninde taget mine ikoner med hjem til sig.  Sådan er det når man ikke er helt tilstede - eller også var det fordi jeg var helt til stede...  Disse billeder blev taget efter middagsluren og viser to herlige børn - tvillinger og så helt forskellige - både af sind og udseende.  Smukke lysende små væsener er de.Stilheden var påtagende når alle var taget hjem - den er nu heller ikke dårlig.Og resten af dagen/aftenen skal jeg bruge på mig selv og min egen næsetip- og så tænker jeg jeg tar en tur i sauna - det var koldt og blæsende i Tisvildeleje i dag, og kroppen trænger til at blive varmet igennem. Jeg er heldig - jeg tænder for saunaen nu og takker for mit liv og for denne dejlige dag.